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The Journey – Day 10 of the Omer

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Throughout our life we are continually coming up against people that wrong us, hurt and abuse us, take us for granted, reject us, abandon us, malign and discount us, ridicule, disparage, hold us in contempt, denigrate,  belittle, vilify…I think you get the picture.  When my children were growing up I often found myself going into their room and kneeling down beside their bed and asking them to forgive me.  For years I operated on only one level of forgiveness; you wrong a person, you are convicted of that wrong, you either do or don’t make a choice to seek their forgiveness, but what about when we are wronged.  Matthew 18:21-22, is one kind of forgiveness, seventy times seven, but what about Matthew 6:14-15 and again in Matthew 18:35 and repeated in Mark 11:25; what is the forgiveness of the heart?  What does it take to make it right with our Heavenly Father, both to forgive and be forgiven? 

I believe these verses are more than promises of YHVH to us, His children; I believe they are meant to be a way of life for us.  Luke 6:36-38; “Be merciful, even as your Father is merciful.  Judge not, and you will not be judged; condemn not, and you will not be condemned; forgive, and you will be forgiven; give, and it will be given to you. Good measure, pressed down, shaken together, running over, will be put into your lap. For with the measure you use it will be measured back to you.” If your “lap” is not over-flowing with the goodness of YHVH take an exploration with me as to (maybe) why not.

This journey through the Feast of Weeks, counting the Omer, is about moving away from the mountain you/me have been circling for who knows how long and striking out on the journey northward – to the Promised Land.  Forgiveness that sets us free from our mountain circling is a revelation of “how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.” Y’Shua died that I might live!  Yet, every day do I take a bite from the life of someone by refusing to see them through Y’Shua’s eyes?  Have I allowed YHVH to show me the blackness of my sin when with my mouth I ask for forgiveness, or even grant forgiveness, but in my heart I harbor feelings of resentment, anger, hate, jealousy, bitterness, revenge, persecution, frustration, etc.; justifying these emotions with, “if they’d only change their attitude or their action toward me then I could love them, then everything would be alright.”

Did we have certain expectations when we entered school, employment, marriage? What are our expectations for our children?  When our job or spouse or children don’t live up to our expectations how do we act?  Do we cry tears into the dishwater all the while muttering, “I hate you,” under our breath?  Do we say, “Sure, I forgive you,” when they come to us with their apologies, but inside we are seething with hostility and revenge.  Do we feed on them like locusts devouring their life energy bit by bit until one day we wake up with the realization that they have changed and we don’t love, much less like them anymore?  Have we yet realized that their change is because we have cursed them over and over both verbally and silently until they are a shell of what they used to be? If this is your marriage and you were covenanted with each other and YHVH in faith, then you need to wake up and understand that your marriage is YHVH’s representation of Y’Shua and His Bride on this earth and ask yourself what is our witness?

We can forgive seventy times seven every day and that is good, it is what Y’Shua requires of us; to turn the other cheek, to go the extra mile, to give the coat when only the shirt was asked for, but there is a deeper forgiveness that is needed if we are to have that good measure, pressed down, shaken together, running over, put into our lap.  It is the forgiveness of a changed heart.  Jeremiah 17:9; “The heart is deceitful above all, and desperately wicked: who can know it?”  When we realize that we have been trusting the emotions of our heart in its deceit, and wickedness, when we see the blackness of our soul and how this ugliness is sapping the life of those that love us most then we must humble ourselves and seek our Heavenly Father’s face and turn from our wicked ways and repent and He will come to us. 1John 4:16; “YHVH is love, and whoever abides in love abides in YHVH, and YHVH abides in him. By this is love perfected with us, so that we may have confidence for the day of judgment, because as He is so also are we in this world. There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. We love because He first loved us. If anyone says, “I love YHVH,” and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen cannot love YHVH whom he has not seen. And this commandment we have from Him: whoever loves YHVH must also love his brother.”

So the question begs to be asked, “How can we love our brother, (sister, spouse, parent, in-law, friend) when they have treated us so despitefully?”  I believe the answer is beautifully given in Hebrews 10:15-23; “And the Holy Spirit also is a witness to us: for after that He had said before,  This is the covenant that I will make with them after those days, saith YHVH, I will put my Torah into their hearts, and upon their minds I will write them; and their sins and iniquities will I remember no more. Now where remission of these is, there is no more offering for sin.  Having therefore, brethren, boldness to enter into the holiest by the blood of Y’Shua, by a new and living way, which He hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, His flesh; and having an high priest over the house of Elohim; let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled from an evil conscience, and our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; for he is faithful that promised…”

Y’Shua is Torah, John 1:1; “In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with YHVH and the Word was YHVH.” Vs. 14; “And the Word became flesh, and dwelt among us, and we beheld His glory, glory as of the only begotten from the Father, full of grace and truth.”

Revelation 3:20; Behold, I (Y’Shua) stand at the door (of our heart) and knock; if anyone opens the door, I will come in to him, and will dine with him, and he with Me.”

This forgiveness requires our stony heart to be replaced with a heart of flesh, Y’Shua living in us, creating in us a soft, suppleness of our mind, will and emotions as we surrender to the One who has promised to hold us in the palm of His hand where the enemy of the brethren cannot snatch us away.  He is the One we have to learn to look to for the fulfillment of every need that we have.  If we look to another we will only end up dissatisfied and accusatory – this opens the door for the destructive work of hasatan.  Be an overcomer, not a victim.  Forgive and promote Life!